All of the sudden I really want to go fishing. I don't really remember exactly what triggered it, but I believe it had to do with my sister talking about something when we took Crystal to the the dog park.
So now I really wanna go fishing. I was looking some stuff up like rods and reels, and I decided I would like to get a new one since mine is fairly old and the reel is kinda broke, and a little too short for my liking. I probably would like to get a rod that is a minimum of 7 feet long. I was thinking about the Abu Garcia Cardinal Bruiser combo from Walmart. Many people recommended the Shakespeare Ugly Stik, but my sister already has one of those and I would like to try something new but proven. I also went to Walmart to check out some of the artificial bait/lures. I have some things in mind to get.
I also looked up some ponds, lakes, and reservoirs for us to fish at. Wow I had no idea there was salmon in Colorado, granted they tend to be in the colder bodies of water up in the mountains but still! I wanna catch a Northern Pike or Walleye one day, those are pretty tasty fish and expensive in the grocery stores when they do have it.
On the other hand, I had a job interview this afternoon. It was short and quick, I don't know how well I did. Probably not that well since I found it hard to answer the questions and it last less than 30 minutes!
February 28, 2011
February 20, 2011
Korean BBQ~~
After a brief chat with Phish, my sister and I proceeded to enter Korea House. I felt it was a pretty nice place, not as "fancy" as Seoul BBQ... definitely felt more homey. In the center of the restaurant were the low tables where you seat on a cushion on the floor. Well that spot was reserved so, we had to sit in the standard booths. We were given glasses of ice water, at Seoul BBQ they gave us some sort of barley tea. Then we told the lady we wanted two unlimited BBQ, and she told us to pick three meats from the menu. So we choose beef tongue, pork kalbi, and spicy chicken to start.
We finished that plate of meat pretty quick, so when she came back we ordered Bulgogi and Spicy Pork next. My sister started to feel full earlier than I did probably because she had been munching away on the sides more than I have. I think my favorite meats were the pork kalbi and the bulgogi. Next time we'll have to try their chadol and maybe the bacon. Grilled bacon anyone? Haha.
The lady asked if we wanted more meat and I declined, she then bought us a teacup of sikhye. I guzzled it down. This one didn't taste as sweet and wasn't slushie like at Seoul BBQ.
Overall, I prefer this place to Seoul BBQ, because it felt more "beginner" friendly and more home like.
February 11, 2011
Excited over nothing
Wow, I don't know why I am getting excited over a DSLR camera. It's like I'm expecting to get it soon. I currently don't have the money for sure, but if I did I would be running to Best Buy in a heartbeat and buy the Rebel T2i while it is on sale!
Perhaps it is because I am so envious of everyone taking awesome macro pictures, that I really want to do the same. I really do love taking non-people pictures,; especially macro, nature, and landscape photography. I would love to bring it to the next level. You can only do so much with a P&S after all...
Sigh, even if I did have the money I bet my parents would get pissed off anyways. I told my mom last night when I have the money the first thing I'm gonna buy is a DSLR. Then she started rambling on how I'm wasting money and how I don't need it and asked me if I thought my dad would let me get it. In my mind I said of course not; the last time I said I wanted a DSLR he told me that I don't need it because I'm not a PROFESSIONAL photographer or going to be one.
But the Canon Rebel series are an ENTRY level DSLR, professionals use DSLR that cost over $1000 just for the freaking camera BODY (meaning it does not come with lenses) and not to mention $1000+/each LENSES; and god knows what else they buy (expensive flashes?). Wow. And here I am just asking to buy me a $900 camera KIT (comes with a standard quality lens), $600 macro lens, $350 flash, and few more $$$ for the memory card and -necessary- supplies... sure it is definitely a lot of money, I am not gonna lie it does make me cringe, but if you call that "professional" I don't know what those people that spend over $1000 for just the body are... photography gods that overspend?!
They never approve of my hobbies... aquariums, photography... says it is a waste of time and money... now I am feeling depressed as I think about it. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........
Perhaps it is because I am so envious of everyone taking awesome macro pictures, that I really want to do the same. I really do love taking non-people pictures,; especially macro, nature, and landscape photography. I would love to bring it to the next level. You can only do so much with a P&S after all...
Sigh, even if I did have the money I bet my parents would get pissed off anyways. I told my mom last night when I have the money the first thing I'm gonna buy is a DSLR. Then she started rambling on how I'm wasting money and how I don't need it and asked me if I thought my dad would let me get it. In my mind I said of course not; the last time I said I wanted a DSLR he told me that I don't need it because I'm not a PROFESSIONAL photographer or going to be one.
But the Canon Rebel series are an ENTRY level DSLR, professionals use DSLR that cost over $1000 just for the freaking camera BODY (meaning it does not come with lenses) and not to mention $1000+/each LENSES; and god knows what else they buy (expensive flashes?). Wow. And here I am just asking to buy me a $900 camera KIT (comes with a standard quality lens), $600 macro lens, $350 flash, and few more $$$ for the memory card and -necessary- supplies... sure it is definitely a lot of money, I am not gonna lie it does make me cringe, but if you call that "professional" I don't know what those people that spend over $1000 for just the body are... photography gods that overspend?!
They never approve of my hobbies... aquariums, photography... says it is a waste of time and money... now I am feeling depressed as I think about it. Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........
February 10, 2011
Another motivation...
I submitted another job application, I highly doubt something will happen. I am only motivated now because I really want the following ASAP:
But I know it is all a dream, and that I'm not really going to get a job. But I would probably say that the DSLR digi-cam and the lenses are my first priority. I've always loved photography; especially macro photography, and really wish to bring it to the next level from Point and Shoots.
I do also remember bits of my dream last night. I remember being in a darkish room with white walls, across me against the wall was an aquarium and a light fixture hung above it several inches. This fixture which lights the tank was the only light illuminating the room a little. The tank was very clean and rimless, lots of high light plants, some colorful fishes. I then remembering talking to AzFishKid about plants and his tank, but he was not physically there, as if I were talking to the aquarium itself! Then I remember suddenly standing on a branch high on an leafy tree. The tree had thick stump, brown rough bark, and started branching off fairly low, the branches continued to stay very thick and sturdy. The leaves were moderate in size, ovalate or lanceolate in shape, and had indents at the edge of the leaf. I remember peering away and seeing a fairly big, lit-up city in the distance, the sky was dusk. Then I peer down at the foot of the tree and see two unknown people sleeping against the tree.
Room
To dream that you are in a room, represents a particular aspect of yourself or a specific relationship. Dreams about various rooms often relate to hidden areas of the conscious mind and different aspects of your personality. If the room is welcoming or comfortable, then it signifies opulence and satisfaction in life. If you see a dark or confined room, then it denotes that you feel trapped or repressed in a situation.
Light
To see soft or shadowy lighting in your dreams, indicates feelings and thoughts from the primal aspects and less developed parts of your unconscious.
White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.
Walls
To see a wall in your dream, signifies limitations. obstacles and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck.
Aquarium
To see an aquarium in your dream, signifies that you have acknowledged your emotions but have not yet confronted them. Thus, it may refer to your unconscious thoughts or repressed sexual desires. Also, you may feel that your life is going nowhere or that you feel it is going in circles. Alternatively, the aquarium may indicate that you need to calm down and set some time for yourself to relax and unwind.
Talking
To dream that you are talking does not have any significance unless it is unusual or bizarre. What are you saying specifically. Consider also if what you say evoke strong feelings or behavioral reactions. The dream may simply be highlighting your need improve your communication skills or learn to express yourself more clearly.
Trees
To see lush green trees in your dream, symbolize new hopes, growth, desires, knowledge, and life. It also implies strength, protection and stability. You are concentrating on your own self-development and individuation.
City
To see a city in your dream, signifies your social environment and sense of community. If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone.
Dusk
To see the dusk of day in your dream, signifies defeated hopes and a dark, gloom outlook in your endeavors.
Two
Two stands for balance, diversity, partnership, marriage cooperation, soul, or receptivity. It can also symbolize double weakness or double strength. The world is seen as being made up of dualities and opposites, as in the male and female, mother and father, light and dark, heaven and hell, yin and yang, etc.
People
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge.
Sleeping
To see someone sleeping in your dream, is a reflection of yourself and your own unconscious mind. It is telling you that you may not be alert or informed about a particular situation.
- Adobe Creative Suite 5 Design Premium Student and Teacher Edition
- 29g tank, T5-HO light, CO2 equipment, high light plants, and some Gertrude's, Furcata, and Threadfin Rainbowfish
- Website and Domain name with Whois Privacy
- Canon EOS Rebel T2i EF-S 18-55mm IS Kit, EF 100mm f/2.8 Macro USM Lens, Speedlite 430EX II
- My own house, or a place I own and not rent.....
But I know it is all a dream, and that I'm not really going to get a job. But I would probably say that the DSLR digi-cam and the lenses are my first priority. I've always loved photography; especially macro photography, and really wish to bring it to the next level from Point and Shoots.
I do also remember bits of my dream last night. I remember being in a darkish room with white walls, across me against the wall was an aquarium and a light fixture hung above it several inches. This fixture which lights the tank was the only light illuminating the room a little. The tank was very clean and rimless, lots of high light plants, some colorful fishes. I then remembering talking to AzFishKid about plants and his tank, but he was not physically there, as if I were talking to the aquarium itself! Then I remember suddenly standing on a branch high on an leafy tree. The tree had thick stump, brown rough bark, and started branching off fairly low, the branches continued to stay very thick and sturdy. The leaves were moderate in size, ovalate or lanceolate in shape, and had indents at the edge of the leaf. I remember peering away and seeing a fairly big, lit-up city in the distance, the sky was dusk. Then I peer down at the foot of the tree and see two unknown people sleeping against the tree.
Room
To dream that you are in a room, represents a particular aspect of yourself or a specific relationship. Dreams about various rooms often relate to hidden areas of the conscious mind and different aspects of your personality. If the room is welcoming or comfortable, then it signifies opulence and satisfaction in life. If you see a dark or confined room, then it denotes that you feel trapped or repressed in a situation.
Light
To see soft or shadowy lighting in your dreams, indicates feelings and thoughts from the primal aspects and less developed parts of your unconscious.
White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.
Walls
To see a wall in your dream, signifies limitations. obstacles and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck.
Aquarium
To see an aquarium in your dream, signifies that you have acknowledged your emotions but have not yet confronted them. Thus, it may refer to your unconscious thoughts or repressed sexual desires. Also, you may feel that your life is going nowhere or that you feel it is going in circles. Alternatively, the aquarium may indicate that you need to calm down and set some time for yourself to relax and unwind.
Talking
To dream that you are talking does not have any significance unless it is unusual or bizarre. What are you saying specifically. Consider also if what you say evoke strong feelings or behavioral reactions. The dream may simply be highlighting your need improve your communication skills or learn to express yourself more clearly.
Trees
To see lush green trees in your dream, symbolize new hopes, growth, desires, knowledge, and life. It also implies strength, protection and stability. You are concentrating on your own self-development and individuation.
City
To see a city in your dream, signifies your social environment and sense of community. If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone.
Dusk
To see the dusk of day in your dream, signifies defeated hopes and a dark, gloom outlook in your endeavors.
Two
Two stands for balance, diversity, partnership, marriage cooperation, soul, or receptivity. It can also symbolize double weakness or double strength. The world is seen as being made up of dualities and opposites, as in the male and female, mother and father, light and dark, heaven and hell, yin and yang, etc.
People
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge.
Sleeping
To see someone sleeping in your dream, is a reflection of yourself and your own unconscious mind. It is telling you that you may not be alert or informed about a particular situation.
February 3, 2011
Happy Chinese New Year!
Today is Chinese New Year, the year of the Metal Rabbit!!! So Happy New Year!!
February 2, 2011
I remember vaguely last night's dream
I can't exactly remember what happens but there are some key symbols that I do remember. I do remember that I was crying in my dreams, and ended up waking up cuz I felt tears roll as I was sleeping.
Ice Cream
To see or eat ice cream in your dream, denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.
Dog
To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten.
Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day.
To wake up crying, represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.
Ice Cream
To see or eat ice cream in your dream, denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.
Dog
To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten.
Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day.
To wake up crying, represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.
I just want my own life...
I just want to have my own life, have my own hobbies, do things in peace! But how can when I don't even have my own house and my own paycheck? All I ever hear from my parents is how I am making their house smaller and once my things die, such as plant, do not get anymore. What is so wrong with having a hobby? They say when I get a job that I would not have the time to do such thing, so I better stop now.
The world is so unfair. I compare myself to others, and it seems like most people's parents encourage them to have a hobby. Why can't I? When I want to watch some anime or play some video/computer games, all my mom ever tells me is how childish it is and that I should stop since I am not going into that industry. When I want to start a garden, my mom tells me I am not going to be a farmer, and finally when I tell her that I'll be a effing hobo she tells me that is horrible and how stupid I am for saying that.
There is nothing I am good at, I've been avoiding jobs that I have "training" in because I have absolutely no confidence and full of bad "what ifs". My hobbies are something that bring me a little peace of mind, something I can do and feel good about. Sometimes I just feel like giving up on life, wishing I was never born into this miserable world...
One of my mom's regrets is not being more of a "Tiger Mother" and earlier in our lives...
The world is so unfair. I compare myself to others, and it seems like most people's parents encourage them to have a hobby. Why can't I? When I want to watch some anime or play some video/computer games, all my mom ever tells me is how childish it is and that I should stop since I am not going into that industry. When I want to start a garden, my mom tells me I am not going to be a farmer, and finally when I tell her that I'll be a effing hobo she tells me that is horrible and how stupid I am for saying that.
There is nothing I am good at, I've been avoiding jobs that I have "training" in because I have absolutely no confidence and full of bad "what ifs". My hobbies are something that bring me a little peace of mind, something I can do and feel good about. Sometimes I just feel like giving up on life, wishing I was never born into this miserable world...
One of my mom's regrets is not being more of a "Tiger Mother" and earlier in our lives...
The Hopeless Profession - Part 3
Well I am going to try to be brave and apply for a job, as much I am fearing it to death. It has been many months since that experience and I really want to move on with life. I would like work experience and start making my own money, and unfortunately... pay income tax...
I started the application process, but I'm already feeling distressing pangs of despair and discouragement as I progress though each portion. I can not fill out the work experience part because I do not have any. References are going to be absolutely barren, as I may only have one personal reference; and even that I am not 100% certain. Now isn't that something, not very attractive I suppose. I may get to the last step which is to finally submit the application, but will I click submit or will I 'X-out' of the page and try to forget about it? This may be the big chance; my big chance, but what if it will bring nothing but agony yet again? I am so afraid, I do not know what to do exactly.
The Chinese horoscope claims that this year will be a good year for those born in the year of the Horse. It would be nice if that is true for me.....
2011 horoscope for Horse of metal element
2011 Horse Horoscope In Metal Rabbit Year
I started the application process, but I'm already feeling distressing pangs of despair and discouragement as I progress though each portion. I can not fill out the work experience part because I do not have any. References are going to be absolutely barren, as I may only have one personal reference; and even that I am not 100% certain. Now isn't that something, not very attractive I suppose. I may get to the last step which is to finally submit the application, but will I click submit or will I 'X-out' of the page and try to forget about it? This may be the big chance; my big chance, but what if it will bring nothing but agony yet again? I am so afraid, I do not know what to do exactly.
The Chinese horoscope claims that this year will be a good year for those born in the year of the Horse. It would be nice if that is true for me.....
2011 horoscope for Horse of metal element
The most important thing is that in 2011 year of the white rabbit, you will not only lose, but gain even more confidence. It is this incomparable state, when you think you can do anything, that will be a key driver that leading you to success in 2011. Moreover, if your heart is free, then in 2011 you have a good chance to encounter an ideal partner on your way.
2011 Horse Horoscope In Metal Rabbit Year
For the Horse to have a smooth flowing Year of the Rabbit in 2011, the Chinese astrology forecasts that the Horse must be ready to embrace change and be ready to adjust to new procedures and learn to adapt their skills and also undertake the necessary training. By becoming flexible and persistent, the Horse will secure the opportunity that they have been seeking. 2011 is also a good period for those with the Horse zodiac sign to gain new skills and experience. Horse can look forward to an increase in their income due to their progress at the office but on the other hand, they must pay more attention to their expenditures.
According to the 2011 Horse horoscope in the metal rabbit year, the Metal Horse who are born in 1930 and 1990 will see many important openings that can open up for them in the rabbit year and thus improving their 2011 outlook. Metal Horse who are in education will see the rabbit year as a very significant period. Not all of the Metal Horse plans will go smoothly but there will be many important opportunities opening up for them. The career star will shine brightly for the Metal Horse in 2011 because once they demonstrate their skills, there will be many promotion possibilities. On the financial side for the Metal Horse, they will face some big expenses in the Year of the Rabbit. The love and romance area for the Metal Horse may also face some obstacles in 2011.
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