Another motivation...

I submitted another job application, I highly doubt something will happen. I am only motivated now because I really want the following ASAP:

• Adobe Creative Suite 5 Design Premium Student and Teacher Edition
• 29g tank, T5-HO light, CO2 equipment, high light plants, and some Gertrude's, Furcata, and Threadfin Rainbowfish
• Website and Domain name with Whois Privacy
• Canon EOS Rebel T2i EF-S 18-55mm IS Kit, EF 100mm f/2.8 Macro USM Lens, Speedlite 430EX II
• My own house, or a place I own and not rent.....

But I know it is all a dream, and that I'm not really going to get a job. But I would probably say that the DSLR digi-cam and the lenses are my first priority. I've always loved photography; especially macro photography, and really wish to bring it to the next level from Point and Shoots.

I do also remember bits of my dream last night. I remember being in a darkish room with white walls, across me against the wall was an aquarium and a light fixture hung above it several inches. This fixture which lights the tank was the only light illuminating the room a little. The tank was very clean and rimless, lots of high light plants, some colorful fishes. I then remembering talking to AzFishKid about plants and his tank, but he was not physically there, as if I were talking to the aquarium itself! Then I remember suddenly standing on a branch high on an leafy tree. The tree had thick stump, brown rough bark, and started branching off fairly low, the branches continued to stay very thick and sturdy. The leaves were moderate in size, ovalate or lanceolate in shape, and had indents at the edge of the leaf. I remember peering away and seeing a fairly big, lit-up city in the distance, the sky was dusk. Then I peer down at the foot of the tree and see two unknown people sleeping against the tree.



Room
To dream that you are in a room, represents a particular aspect of yourself or a specific relationship. Dreams about various rooms often relate to hidden areas of the conscious mind and different aspects of your personality. If the room is welcoming or comfortable, then it signifies opulence and satisfaction in life. If you see a dark or confined room, then it denotes that you feel trapped or repressed in a situation.

Light
To see soft or shadowy lighting in your dreams, indicates feelings and thoughts from the primal aspects and less developed parts of your unconscious.

White
White represents purity, perfection, peace, innocence, dignity, cleanliness, awareness, and new beginnings. You may be experiencing a reawakening or have a fresh outlook on life. Alternatively, white refers to a clean, blank slate. Or it may refer to a cover-up. In Eastern cultures, white is associated with death and mourning.

Walls
To see a wall in your dream, signifies limitations. obstacles and boundaries. There is a barrier obstructing your progress. Alternatively, the wall indicates that you are too accustomed to your old habits and way of thinking. You feel stuck.

Aquarium
To see an aquarium in your dream, signifies that you have acknowledged your emotions but have not yet confronted them. Thus, it may refer to your unconscious thoughts or repressed sexual desires. Also, you may feel that your life is going nowhere or that you feel it is going in circles. Alternatively, the aquarium may indicate that you need to calm down and set some time for yourself to relax and unwind.

Talking
To dream that you are talking does not have any significance unless it is unusual or bizarre. What are you saying specifically. Consider also if what you say evoke strong feelings or behavioral reactions. The dream may simply be highlighting your need improve your communication skills or learn to express yourself more clearly.

Trees
To see lush green trees in your dream, symbolize new hopes, growth, desires, knowledge, and life. It also implies strength, protection and stability. You are concentrating on your own self-development and individuation.

City
To see a city in your dream, signifies your social environment and sense of community. If you dream of a big city, then it suggests that you need to develop closer ties and relationships. You are feeling alienated and alone.

Dusk
To see the dusk of day in your dream, signifies defeated hopes and a dark, gloom outlook in your endeavors.

Two
Two stands for balance, diversity, partnership, marriage cooperation, soul, or receptivity. It can also symbolize double weakness or double strength. The world is seen as being made up of dualities and opposites, as in the male and female, mother and father, light and dark, heaven and hell, yin and yang, etc.

People
To see people you don't know in your dream, denotes hidden aspects of yourself that you need to confront or acknowledge.

Sleeping
To see someone sleeping in your dream, is a reflection of yourself and your own unconscious mind. It is telling you that you may not be alert or informed about a particular situation.

I remember vaguely last night's dream

I can't exactly remember what happens but there are some key symbols that I do remember. I do remember that I was crying in my dreams, and ended up waking up cuz I felt tears roll as I was sleeping.


Ice Cream
To see or eat ice cream in your dream, denotes good luck, pleasure, success in love and satisfaction with your life. You need to savor the moment and enjoy it. Alternatively, the dream may suggest that you need to cool off and not let your temper get out of hand. On the other hand, the ice cream may be a pun on "I scream". Perhaps there is something that you need to let out.

Dog
To see a dog in your dream, symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream, indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten.

Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In your daily lives, you tend to ignore, deny, or repress your feelings. But in your dream state, your defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of those feelings that you have repressed during the day.

To wake up crying, represents some suppressed hurt or previous trauma that is coming up to the surface. You can no longer suppress these emotions. They need to be dealt with head on.

Alternate World Dream

I remembered last night's dream. My sister and I were at PetSmart, looking at some aisle. I remember at the end of the aisle were the tanks that had live reptiles in it. I remember seeing a small python-like snake trying to attack a little girl through the glass to no avail, because the girl kept banging on its tank and disturbing it as it was trying to eat a rat it just killed. I remember either the rat or the snake being grey in color and the snake having patterns on its back.

Then I remember buying the snake... and its meal and ending up going to the nearby King Soopers. I remember being there with my new snake while it still tried to swallow the rat, and remembering being at the cashier with several cartons of milk. I told my sister that we were buying too much milk, but went ahead and purchased them. As we were leaving, suddenly we found ourselves in an alternate world.

I saw a large building in the distance, and we headed towards it. When we reach the building, I enter it and at this point my sister completely disappears from this dream. I enter, and was greeted by a group of people and they escorted me to the basement to a room with 3 doors; . I see and old guy working on something. Suddenly some alarm sounds and instinctively I run to one of the two doors that I had not been through. I open it and walk in and look up and see two stones on the ceiling, one of them was lit up and green. The old man asks, "is it Catherine?" and I said no. Then he says, "pick a door, you must escape." I run to the other closed door, and the other people follow; I look up and see two stones too, one of them was lit up as well, but it was black. So we leave through this door and as we escape, we encounter the "enemy" and fight them. Unfortunately we were defeated, and my dream ends here.



Pets
To see a pet in your dream, represents civilized instincts. You are keeping your temper in line. Alternatively, seeing a pet indicates a need for love and acceptance. Perhaps, you are lacking attention from others and are feeling neglected.


Python
To see a python in your dream, represents lurking danger, sin, lacking freedom and overt sexuality. The symbol may also parallel a waking relationship where you are feeling constricted and confined. Alternatively, a python may signify your determination.

To see a python kill its prey, suggests that you are feeling emotionally stressed and anxious. You are being suffocated in some area of your life.


Snake
To see a snake or be bitten by one in your dream, signifies hidden fears and worries that are threatening you. Your dream may be alerting you to something in your waking life that you are not aware of or that has not yet surfaced.


Rats
To see a rat in your dream, signifies feelings of doubts, greed, guilt, unworthiness and envy. You are keeping something to yourself that is eating you up inside. Or you have done something that you are not proud of. Alternatively, a rat denotes repulsion, decay, dirtiness, and even death. The dream may also be a pun on someone who is a rat. Are you feeling betrayed?


Girls
To see a girl in your dream, represents your playful, innocent, and childlike nature. Perhaps you are behaving immaturely in some situation. Alternatively, a girl represents the feminine qualities of your character.


Gray
Gray indicates fear, fright, depression, ill health, ambivalence and confusion. You may feel emotionally distant, isolated, or detached.Alternatively, the color gray symbolizes your individualism.


Market
To dream that you are in a market, represents some emotional or physical need that you are currently lacking in your life. You may be in need of nurturance and some fulfillment. Consider the specific items that you are shopping for. Alternatively, the market signifies frugality.


Milk
To see milk in your dream, symbolizes maternal instincts and motherly love. It also denotes human kindness, wholesomeness, and compassion. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor that someone is "milking" you, either emotionally or financially.


Building
To see a building in your dream, represents the self and the body. How high you are in the building indicates a rising level of understanding, awareness or success. If you are in the lower levels of the building, then it refers to more primal attitudes and/or sexuality.


Groups
To see a group in your dream, refers to the merging of various aspects of your character and personality.


Basement
To dream that you are in a basement, symbolizes your unconscious mind and intuition. The appearance of the basement is an indication of your unconscious state of mind and level of satisfaction.It represents primal urges, animalistic desires and basic needs. The dream may also be metaphor for "abasement" or being "debased". Are you feeling humbled or unworthy?


Three
Three signifies life, vitality, inner strength, completion, imagination, creativity, energy, self-exploration and experience. Three stands for a trilogy, as in the past, present, and future or father, mother, and child or body, mind, and soul, etc. Dream of the number three may be telling you that the third time is the charm.


Door
To dream that the door is closed or locked, signifies opportunities that are denied and not available to you or that you have missed out on. Something or someone is blocking your progress. It also symbolizes the ending of a phase or project. In particular, if you are outside the locked door, then it suggests that you have anti-social tendencies. If you are inside the locked door, then it represents harsh lessons that need to be learned.


Man
To see an old man in your dream, represents wisdom or forgiveness. The old man may be a archetypal figure who is offering guidance to some daily problem.

Black
Black symbolizes the unknown, the unconscious, danger, mystery, darkness, death, mourning, rejection, hate or malice.The color invites you to delve deeper in your unconscious in order to gain a better understanding of yourself. It also signifies a lack of love and lack of support.More positively, black represents potential and possibilities. It is like a clean or blank slate.


Escape
To dream that you escape from jail or some place of confinement, signifies your need to escape from a restrictive situation or attitude. Alternatively, it suggests that you are refusing to face your problems. You are avoiding the situation, instead of confronting them.

Enemy
To see your enemy in your dream, represents opposing ideas and contradictory attitudes. You are in denial about something or you are rejecting someone. Enemies may also represent the enemies within yourself and the inner conflict you have with yourself. Consider the phrase "I am my own worst enemy." Perhaps you are trying to rid yourself of certain aspects of your character.

To dream that you are dealing with an enemy, represents a resolution to some inner conflict or waking life problem.


Defeat
To dream that you have been defeated, indicates that you are headed in the wrong direction. You need to reevaluate the situation and rethink what is really best for you. Alternatively, the dream suggests that you need to learn from your experiences, even the negative ones.

Cool

Yesterday I went to Aqua Imports to meet up with two The Planted Tank members. I bought some Taiwan Moss from one of them, and handed over my paintball CO2 to the other one to see if he could help fix the leaky CO2 problem. I saw some nice aquaria like Gertrude's Rainbows, Celestial Pearl Danios, Sparkling Gouramis, Brigitts Rasboras, and Crystal Shrimps. They also supposedly had some Cardinal Shrimp and Furcata Rainbows but they were sold out.

I haven't been remembering what I've been dreaming about lately.

I can't wait for my new 10g setup to cycle so I can get some Crystal Shrimp and not have them die in a vat of ammonia again.

Clearance Bread

Last night I dreamt that my mom, sister, and I were at the bakery section of a grocery store that kinda looked like Safeway and King Soopers mashed into one. The entire bakery section was on clearance since the store was closing down. There was not much of a selection left. I remember seeing minute amounts of breads and other baked goods. I remember walking ahead, when my sister shouted something like, "Hey, look naan! Naaaaaaan!"

So I turn back and head where she was pointing to, and there were a few packages of Naan left, plus a container containing pieces of it as a sample. I remember taking one, and nibbling on it and walking away.



Bread
To see bread in your dream, represents the basic needs of life. Bread may signify the positive qualities and great things you have learned on your journey of life. Alternatively, it suggests that you need to rise above the situation or rise for the occasion.

Clearance
To dream that something is on clearance, suggests that you are selling yourself short. You may be feeling undervalued or under appreciated. Alternatively, it indicates an old habit or characteristic that you need to clear out and rid yourself of.

Market
To dream that you are in a market, represents some emotional or physical need that you are currently lacking in your life. You may be in need of nurturance and some fulfillment. Consider the specific items that you are shopping for. Alternatively, the market signifies frugality.

To see an barren market in your dream, signifies depression and gloominess. There is a void in your life.

Mass Dieout at Petco and Last night's dream

Today I visit the Petco in Longmont, there was at least 1, if not more, dead fish in EACH and EVERY tank including fresh and salt water. Seriouszly... what happened there? Turning into a Walmart or something?

Also last night, I dreamed I was with my sister and mom and we were wondering about how to go to the zoo. So I asked a bunch of bad-ass looking guys for directions and they told me to take the subway. When we got there I remember seeing a huge line for a Ferris wheel and close by was the zoo.

Directions
To dream that you are following directions, represent your need or ability to accept criticism. It also relates to your feelings about authority.

Subway
To dream that you are in the subway, denotes that you are reaching your goal via unconscious methods. By recognizing the hidden aspects of yourself, you are able to move forward in life. Alternatively, a subway suggests that you are making a hasty decision.

Line
To see a line of people or objects, indicates that you need to be more aware of some situation or relationship.

Ferris Wheel
To see or ride on a Ferris wheel in your dream, suggests that you are going around in circles. You are headed nowhere. Alternatively, it is symbolic of wholeness and the circle of life. Life is full of ups and downs.

Zoo
To dream that you are at a zoo, symbolizes loss of freedom. Alternatively, a zoo suggests that your abilities and talents are going unnoticed. You or an aspect of your life feels caged in. The zoo may also represent chaos and confusion as implied by the common phrase "this place is a zoo!" You may need to tidy up some situation in your life.

Last Night's Dream

Last night I remember dreaming about that I was with some guy and we were outside. The sky was kinda grey, but nothing bad at all. I told the guy that I had to go, then I see something forming... a twister. It was kinda clear not too dark and it was extremely close by. I remember trying to out run it to my car and drive away, but I got sucked up and I thought it was the end of my life. The guy tried to grab my hand, I have no clue why he wasn't sucked up. I remember the sickening feel of my body being spun around roughly and being sucked upwards. Everything was in a total blur of course due to the speed and force. Then the twister slowly came to an end and I fell on to the ground.


Tornados
To see a tornado in your dream, suggests that you are experiencing some extreme emotional outbursts and temper tantrums. Is there a situation or relationship in your life that may be potentially destructive?

To dream that you are in a tornado, means that you are feeling overwhelmed and out of control. Your plans will be filled with much complications and you will be met with a series of disappointments.

Car
To see a parked car in your dream, suggests that you need to turn your efforts and energies elsewhere. You may be needlessly spending your energy in a fruitless endeavor. Alternatively, a parked car may symbolize your need to stop and enjoy life. To dream that you cannot find where you parked your car, suggests that you do not know where you want to go in life.

Spinning
To dream that you are spinning, signifies confusion. You are feeling out of control. Alternatively, the dream means that you are going nowhere.